She guides me gently in Mysterious ways...

I havn't written for a few days as I've been working. I've barely had the energy to get through the days at the hospital due to the constant pain all over my body. Needles to say, I havn't had time to work on my journaling. The one thing that does keep me going is that I know that I am a good nurse, and every day I'm at the hospital, I know that someone special needs my help. I do feel at the end of the day that the care I have given others does make a difference.

I really do love nursing, but the twelve hour shifts on my feet are really doing me in. I'm working really hard to heal my achy body when I can. I eat a healthy diet, and try to exercise regularily. I also do yoga at home for flexibility. Unfortunately, I'm working against time, genetics, and arthritis which is settling in all my joints with no mercy. My feet and ankles are getting hit the hardest with the arthritis. Not that I'm trying to complain, but on top of the pain and stiffness from the arthritis, I'm dealing with some major gynecological problems which I've been putting off for as long as I can.....but they now must be addressed. Honestly, I know the occupation I have chosen has served me well, but I know it's slowing coming to a close.

I feel that I am being called apon by something higher to explore my other talents and gifts. Maybe it's the goddess's way of gently pushing me to achieve my hearts desire. Maybe...just maybe, when I am positioned to explore other options in my life like having more time to write my journals, work on my photography, explore the wilderness, or maybe even travel a little....... maybe then my body will start to realign itself to fully heal.

I'm not sad that I'm a nurse as I feel I've touched many lives in a positive way. I have given much love and understanding. I find comfort in knowing that I'm not on this pathway of my life alone. The great mother of all is gently guiding me in all her mysterious ways.

I just must keep the faith that the life I see in my minds eye is slowing manifesting as each day passes.

Maya xoxoxo